Last year around this time my life was completely different, and I was happy. I was working on getting my comic created, launching a website, starting the process of living my dream as a comic book creator and artist and to be completely candid I had an angel sitting on my shoulder. Maybe there are angels still looking out for me, but it isn't quite the same... better or worse... Anyway, I have worked hard to feel ready to put my work out there into the "cruel world." It isn't perfect and it never will be, no ones is!!! I am a work in progress, I make A LOT of mistakes ( some of them typos and missed editing) but I also learn and grow w/ every mistake I make. I have even learned to move forward and not focus on all of the things I do wrong.
I am a child of the 80's and 90's. One of those decades I was mostly a little kid playing w/ my Star Wars, GI Joes and Masters of the Universe toys and the next I was teenager who loved music of the 90's, wrote bad poetry, and even tried to pick a guitar. And all through those years and up to now I have loved comics, drawing and writing. Kurt Cobain is a major influence in my work even now, and he once made a comment in regards to music... he basically said... it's okay if it's a little out of tune as long as it's good and has passion. Those words have always stuck in my brain. I haven't always been the best at everything, but I have always been pretty good and always end up getting better through practice, trial and error. And one thing I have learned is that if you commit to anything you love and work hard... things will work out for the best. Kurt's quote in many ways is the story of my life... I love the idea that art is what you believe in or feel! You of course want to make people think and feel as well, but your work will suffer if you sacrifice your vision for the sake of what others will think. So if my lines aren't always perfect, my blacks aren't black enough or my colors not bright enough it's because that's what came out of me... it's what I want to be there. Life isn't perfect and art is supposed to imitate it? So why get so bent on perfection? these are quests I ask myself when drawing especially.
My whole life over all has been amazing! I, like everyone, have had crazy highs and the lowest of the lows! But it could always be worse. One day w/ the help of someone very special to me I made a choice the focus on now instead of looking backward and especially forward! As soon as I started to do this my life began to change... the things I wanted started to happen and I started to feel less scared and confused about where I was going. I get huge curves thrown at me all the time and sometimes I can't get out of the way fast enough and take one on the face, but I get up dust myself off and take my damn base! Beauty can come from ugly, a positive will spring from a negative and your heart may get stomped, but it will keep beating.
This year is shaping up to be a better year than last year and last year was rough but it pretty damn good overall. I am working on issue 2 of the COMIC, drawing like a man possessed, meeting many awesome new and inspirational people and this blog will be a book soon coming to a store near you! Did I mention that Avengers 2 and Star Wars 7 are released this year too? Talk about a bright side of life! I can't wait!
Last year was the beginning and foundation work! This year my "great pyramid" (scheme) will continue to grow ! The future will take care of it's self. Let's stay in the now and let's always be kind to each other.
PS: Thank you to everyone who have supported and encouraged me over the years. It's tough to make things happen w/ out good people looking out for you. And thanks to the Sea Angel... I was the fish! The "B's" will never leave my hive.